I have barely any control about what I am doing (and that has always been the case to some degree), simply because everything is mood dependent, combined with depending on outside circumstances.
Technically speaking I have a LOT of time, probably as much time as anyone could possibly have. But I can only have one thing on my mind at a time, so switching between tasks is not a thing I often do. I’m actually trying to get better at that one by splitting my room into different work areas (see the Corner Table I just acquired).
When it comes to things in GT6 there is two categories of things people ask me to do, the “this is screwed up, please fix” and the “please add this thing, because it would be nice”.
Obviously the fixing Issues thing is something that has priority for me to the point I want to get rid of the Issue as fast as possible, because it interrupts my Brain.
While the “please add new thing” Part involves stuff like researching on Wikipedia (especially for new Materials!), coming up with a good way to integrate the thing (Recipes, Tech Tree and the likes), and actually balancing the result. Sure adding a new Material and a new Machine are both one-liners, but a lot of thought goes into the things I add, and for that kind of thinking, I actually need to be in the mood.
This is why things like watching Bear play GT6 actually make me notice Issues and start working on things that could improve gameplay.
Back in ye olden days, I watched a lot of people play modded Minecraft, and it always made me think of ways how to improve it in some way or another, so I made those improved things, and this is how GregTech came to be. It was always about improving and making sense of modded Minecraft.
But nowadays Minecraft just feels bad, not stale, but actually bad. And I mean specifically Minecraft with all the shitty performance, Forge and Microsoft Garbage.
That and the ability to do Stuff I always wanted to do are the main reasons I started Mechaenetia.
And then I got stuck at a certain point about 14 months ago, while at the very same time having my friend OvermindDL1 get stuck with a baby, and the whole pandemic thing starting (that pandemic got me too scared to do anything early on), grinding my motivation on this Project to a temporary halt, so I decided to get other things off my mind first.
Please don’t get into anxiety, just because I am such a chaotic minded person, who also mostly gave up on Modded Minecraft. It’s just not a good idea.